DEEP INSIDE

Forgiveness is one thing.

Sitting beside the man you have already forgiven is another.

Nearly six years after Luke’s murder, Tammy Horvath walks into a Pennsylvania prison to meet Tyrone McDuffie face-to-face. She has already forgiven him, but she wants clear answers.

In Deep Inside, Tammy listens to Tyrone’s account of the night Luke died, notices inconsistencies, learns pieces of his painful past, and discovers how complicated it can be to love someone without excusing what he has done.

The prison visit unfolds alongside depression, fear, exercise, faith, unanswered questions, unexpected humor, and the strange human details of spending hours in a visiting room with the man who killed her son.

This Christian memoir asks a harder question than whether forgiveness is possible:

What happens after you forgive?

“Roll up for a great read. How many people do you know who’ve shot a mattress, been scared of a vending machine in a high-security prison, and asked their mother if they’d like to adopt a bat? Tammy is full of surprises. I give it five stars.

“Still raw with grief after her son’s murder, Tammy Horvath continues in her struggle to pick up the pieces of her broken world. Tenacity and determination drive her far beyond her comfort zone, and even the shortest of journeys don’t always go as planned. Heart-rending, nail-biting, and, at times, amusing, Deep Inside is a unique and riveting insight into one woman’s life after loss.”

Liza Grantham, Author of the Mad Cows in Galicia multi-bestselling memoir series

“An astonishing true story of a remarkable woman who braves the prison system and not only befriends but forgives her son’s killer.”

Alison Ripley Cubitt, screenwriter and author

“Horvath’s latest book in the Journeys Through Life series is a poignant look inside the heart of a mother whose world was shattered by the murder of her son. Raw and emotional, Deep Inside takes you on a journey deeper into forgiveness and grace. We get a glimpse into prison life and the mind of a troubled young man who was put there to pay for his crimes. Each chapter ends with Horvath’s transformational journey as she continues to obey God.”

Jane Daly, Author of Hole in My Family Portrait

“Deep Inside has movie written on every page. With her unique writing style, Tammy Horvath portrays not only action of treacherous encounters with backcountry mountain biking but also chilling descriptions of trying to single-handedly stop an unknown night prowler and a risky state prison visit to be face-to-face with her son’s murderer. There are mysteries around every corner as each page is turned. It is heartwarming to read an author who is not ashamed and has the boldness and courage to profess her firm belief in our Savior. I am confident Tammy will be with her son Luke in heaven.”

Michael Copple, Author of Calling from the Sky, Considering Wisdom, Solving the Spiritual Dilemma, Vastness of Pace and more.

“This third in Tammy Horvath’s Journeys Through Life series is as much about her personal transformational journey as about her journey to meet a killer. Faced with the possibility of meeting her son’s murderer for the first time, face to face, Tammy relies on her faith and her love to see her through.

“Beautifully written, incredibly descriptive, and heartwarming, this is an uplifting read rather than a depressing one, given the subject matter. There are light-hearted moments as Tammy pushes herself to the limit in more ways than one, and a deep abiding sense of peace as she forgives the unforgivable and loves the unlovable killer of her only son.

“Profound and incredible. A modern-day story of redemption and love.”

Lisa Rose Wright, Author of the Writing Home series of memoirs

Media Mentions About Deep Inside

Interview at The Journey Church of Western Pennsylvania with Pastor Ray Streets on February 17, 2024

In this video interview, we talk about my newly launched book, “Deep Inside: Forgiving the Unforgivable, Loving the Unlovable,” available on Amazon, Audible, and Barnes & Noble…